When I think back to the day I surrendered my heart to Jesus, I am in awe how relentlessly God pursued me. Before that day, I did say these words, “Jesus, You are my Lord and Savior and I believe in You.” But, this was the moment He reached my heart.
I went to a Franklin Graham crusade in 1996, in which I was extremely reluctant to attend. I was “successful” up to that point in my life when it came to getting good grades, sports, and having a gazillion friends, but something was missing in my heart that no one on earth could fill. I did not even know what I was searching for, but nothing fully satisfied me. I was in the very back row of the civic center that seats approximately 2,000. And that SONG the worship team was singing, “Come just as you are, hear the Spirit call.” Yep, that song. I’ll never forget it. I even remember their hand gestures! After about 15 alter call invitations,“I know there’s someone out there that God is calling…” oh, yeah, that was totally me. I fought it. I was embarrassed to go forward. I wasn’t one to show my emotions. So this was a real moment for me. And to go before thousands of people and surrender my life to Jesus was simply not in my vocabulary. I put one foot in front of the other, with tears streaming down my face (I couldn’t stop those tears if I tried). I could have fallen over from the presence of God in that moment. The walls around my heart fell that day. I became vulnerable and the healing began. I am so thankful I met the One who really matters that day. It changed my life forever, and I will never be the same. Years later, God had me singing His word over people in that very civic center.
Who Does It Really Matter To?
My dad asked me the other day, “Angela, who does it really matter to?” *gulp* My dad often asks questions that have me thinking for days. This question brought me to the heart of our Lord. Who does it matter to? And who SHOULD it matter to? “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33
Heaven On Earth
“Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.” John 14:12
He created us in His image, His intent for us is “heaven on earth,” conformed to, fashioned to resemble His likeness. Jesus and you and I came out of the same seed; inside, we are to bear the image of Christ. We are purposed to have the same fruit as Him.
In 2002, an anointed man of God, Bobby Conner, ministered at our church, Morningstar International Fellowship. He would enter the church after music worship was done and prophetically speak to us. I had never met him before, nor did he know me at that time. He walked right up to me after preaching and said this scripture to me. Then told me to come up in front of the church to read it out loud. So I did, with tears streaming. It was another one of “those” moments. Bobby said, “that’s your calling,” as he pointed to Ps40:3. I have been leading worship as the chief musician ever since that day. God speaks life.
For the director of music. Of David.
1 I waited patiently for the Lord;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the Lord
and put their trust in him.
I wrote my first worship song that night. “More of You Jesus.”
Worship is a way of life. How we interact with people daily, how we handle situations, are all acts of worship to our Lord.
Music worship in the great assembly is one way to “worship” our Lord. It is usually led by the “chief musician” described in the word. David was the chief musician in psalms.
The lead music worshiper points the people to Jesus-The One Who really matters. The One who heals. The One who can reach the lost, brokenhearted, desperate girl trying to hide in the back row of a service of 2,000 people, and reach into the very depths of her heart, heal, give hope, bring peace, and make whole, while providing the hope of His calling, according to His purpose.
The anointing of God is tangible. What God has done in my life truly is a miracle. He speaks through people who walk in the image of Jesus, led by the Spirit. The same Spirit that rose Jesus from the dead lives in you. Christ in you, the hope of Glory!
It took people being led of the Holy Spirit, overflowing with God’s presence, to reveal the Father’s heart and provide an opportunity for me to meet the One who really matters.
Psalm 100:2 serve the Lord with gladness: come before His presence with singing